Liminality

Published on Wednesday January 6th, 2010

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I’ve enjoyed reading the annual crop of New Year blog posts — some triumphant reviews of projects accomplished and milestones passed, others contemplative reflections or statements of resolution for the new year and the new decade. And yet I’ve been reluctant to poise my fingers above the keyboard and begin my own. The last weeks have been all hunkering down and wintering in, reconnecting with loved ones, warming ourselves around the little fire of our hopes for 2010.

At my house, we gladly bade 2009 good riddance. While it didn’t contain major tragedy for our little family, it was a year riddled with disappointments, frustrations, and road blocks. It brought us good things, notably the birth of our nephew, but many parts we just had to grind through and endure. We had to revise our expectations, defer some dreams, jury-rig and improvise here and there. Toil didn’t always pay off. Lights appeared on the horizon, then winked out. Spirits were sometimes low, and communication was sometimes poor.

Prising ourselves out of the teeth of such a year to blink in the light of a new one, resolutions seem laughable. We see promise and peril, currents that could sweep us to joy or to grief, tests of courage and faith. We don’t expect a smooth voyage, but if fair weather comes it will be very fair indeed. If it doesn’t, we’ll make everything fast and sail on. Maybe just a few points on which to be resolute, then: To trust my partner and to offer him kindness and support, every day. To take pleasure in the work of my hands and brain. To stay open. Kick me if you catch me breaking any of those, but leave me to the pursuit of wool and cream and chocolate and the avoidance of strenuous exercise, should I choose them.

Onward.

Flight of the argyles

Published on Thursday December 17th, 2009

It has begun. It won’t be finished in time for Christmas, but the argyle madness is officially underway.

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I have made one mistake since these photos were taken, but I think I can make it difficult to spot, and luckily it’s at the side where my brother’s arm is likely to hide it. Other than that, the intarsia-in-the-round is going better than I had hoped. And Berroco’s Ultra Alpaca Light really is a lovely yarn. This project is slow going, though. I sure hope I execute the math perfectly so it fits exactly the way my brother wants it, as I’m pretty sure I only want to knit one of these.

Skating party

Published on Thursday December 10th, 2009

With Portland in the clutches of the best cold snap in a decade, I should have thought of it myself.

Every mild Northwest winter I mourn the lack of ice for skating. There are rinks in Portland, of course, where you can pay to shuffle around in a maelstrom of children and inexpert adults on ice that’s barely frozen because it’s conveniently located inside a mall. I suspect if you pay more you can gain access to a more serious rink with more serious skaters, but the skating I love is the free skating from my days in Maine, the night skating on the town green flooded by the fire department, or the open and mostly deserted hockey arena where I could squeeze in an hour between classes after lunch.

When the skating bug bit me my freshman year, I was sometimes skating three or four times a day, first on borrowed skates, then on cheap figure skates from Play It Again Sports once I knew I was hooked. I passed the wobbly stage, learned to keep my center of gravity low and my knees flexible, grew faster and bolder. One afternoon the girls’ hockey coach spotted me practicing hockey stops. He shook his head in dismay at my footwear and told me that if I got some real skates he’d teach me. I found a nice pair of CCM hockey skates on sale, and teach me he did, several days a week, just because he had some spare time in the afternoons before the team practiced and he liked seeing a girl hooked on gliding over the ice and eager to practice back crossovers and edge changes.

So last night: a phone call from our neighbor Carl. Carl grew up in Maine, and although he came late to skating as I did, he got the same bug. Earlier in the week Carl and his wife had tried to go out kayaking to look at the snow geese visiting for the winter on Smith and Bybee Lakes, a couple of wetland ponds north of the city. (The ponds are surrounded by industrial complexes, port terminals, and a freight railroad, but they’re the largest wetland preserve within an American city and they draw all kinds of birds and other wildlife. They’re also on one of our main cycling routes, which is why I really should have thought of them.) The ponds were mostly frozen, which didn’t deter Carl and Kate; they scooted their kayak along until the ice was thin enough to break through and went for their paddle anyway. But the temperature had stayed well below freezing ever since, and Carl wanted to go back and see if the wetlands were skatable. It would have to be now or early in the morning, as the temperature is forecast to rise today and through the weekend.

Turtleneck. Fleece overshirt. Norwegianish wool cardigan from L.L. Bean. Down jacket. Windproof neck warmer. Fleece headband. Hat. Long johns. Jeans. Ski socks. Ski mittens. Snowboots. Skates. A backpack with emergency dry clothes and a length of rope. A couple of long, stout sticks to feel ahead for irregularities or thin patches in the ice. Headlamps optional. We piled into Carl’s ancient VW Rabbit and we were off. The “closed at sunset” gates to the preserve were open; the place was still and quiet but for the occasional clank and belch of some industrial equipment and the gabble of the geese nesting on an island far across the pond. The northern constellations glimmered dimly through the mauve haze of the light pollution: Orion. Casseopeia. Auriga. The Dipper.

We laced our skates at the pond’s edge, laughing at having forgotten how stiff skates are. We skated cautiously at first, prodding and tapping with our poles, finding the shallow places where reeds poked through and the rough places where wind or current had rumpled the surface. At least twenty yards from shore the ice was sound. Carl triggered a crack or two farther out, so we kept to the shoreline. A small cove beside the bulk of a beaver lodge seemed to have the smoothest ice. We scribed figure eights and spirals, carving tracks and curlicues and enjoying the run and scrape of our blades for an hour. I was tentative at first, but worked slowly through my old exercises, finding my balance, finding my edges (sadly dull), feeling the ice. I did my back crossovers with something less than my old fluidity, but I did them: gliding backwards at medium speed, shoulders turned to the center of my circle, weight low, trusting the outside edge of the inner blade to free the outer foot for the step over and in. I didn’t fall. I wasn’t cold. The park rangers didn’t find us and make us get off the ice.

Afterward, after we ate cookies and satsumas around the stove in Carl and Kate’s kitchen, I slept more soundly than I have in weeks.

Sunday noon

Published on Sunday December 6th, 2009

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This looks like the height of luxury, doesn’t it? But I think we’d earned it by singing for three hours in English, Latin, and Italian. I’ve managed a lot of knitting on my Pas de Valse cardigan during the 10am services (and other occasions impractical for lugging about a basket of yarn and accoutrements for stranded or intarsia colorwork).

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I’m interested to see how this piece will look after blocking. It’s knit with a fingering-weight 2-ply Bluefaced Leicester wool on US #6 needles, which gives a rather pebbly stockinet fabric. I’m giving it entirely too much of my knitting time, but I’m so looking forward to having this airy, floaty cardigan ready for the very first spring weather.